I saw a quote the other day that read, “Some of y’all never had to be the “good child” in hopes of lessening your parent’s problems which ultimately lead to buried feelings, inability to express emotions, wanting to please everyone, inability to handle the tiniest bit of confrontation and criticism, and it really shows.”
I spent the first 20 or so years of my life trying to be the good child, the responsible one, the one she could be proud of.
I remember being scared that she would kill herself if I upset her.
I remember feeling ashamed for having feelings that were different than hers.
My whole orientation to life used to be making sure I wasn’t the one who made her kill herself.
Every day of my life is a battle to heal what I can and live with what I can’t.
If that’s your story, too, I’m with you and you’re magic.
Quote via @witchdoctorpoet on Instagram