A *Day*.

Originally posted April 17, 2013

My kids and husband just drove away and I know that streams of tears are coming soon. My kids and I, we accidentally had this ideal, glowing, in-the-groove kind of day.  I worked out outside with Daughter while Husband and Son took Dog for a walk.  H then went upstairs to work, while the kids and I spent more than an hour picnicking on on the front porch, each of us stating again and again, in turn, "It's so, so nice out."

And then a surprise trip to the ice cream shop, followed immediately by hours at the playground.  I often find the playground tedious, but this time I sat alone, letting the kids figure it all out, refusing to take Isla down off of a structure she'd deemed too high once halfway up.  "You are capable.  It's my job to help you see what you can do."  After completing it once, she zipped over it again and again, sure and confident.

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I stood at the kitchen window this evening as I began to frame together what I'd make for dinner.

In an instant, the sound of them in the bath, the glow of the day, it all coalesced into this shimmer, this knowing of just how true this little life we have really is.  I recognized the fear creeping in, almost instantly, and hushed it, soothed it.

And then I breathed in that moment, sucked it down deep into myself, into a place where it'll be safe.

Where I'll be able to find it again when I need it.

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